journey to love.part 1

They say on average, a man will spend a whole year staring at a woman before asking her out, or even saying hi. I totally don’t agree with that. Scenarios where shez a complete stranger a quite simple, you don’t loose your manhood when your turned down, you loose it when you don’t ask. Schrodinger’s cat. The hardest thing is falling for someone your introduced to on day one then waiting for the chance to come, that’s if it ever comes, to ask her out.

Lets take a detour down some memory lane, you run into your long time friend in vac at your cousins party and there she is with her buddy, her bestie, with the most beautiful set of teeth, spoken English and has that magnetic effect that draws you to her like bees on roses that you fail to say hi or look in her direction. Your buddy introduces her to you and she already has your heart at hi. Chances are you fall in the category of people with ‘cute’ names that when she sys it out, your perverted mind takes the other serious meaning. You literally daydream for a minute or two.

You jazz, talk about school, friends, funny thing you might have crossed paths way back (if hypnosis was real you could pay a million bucks just to relive that moment)in childhood, maybe if she had seen your serious looks and light skin back then she would jump on you now…wake up, your daydreaming again. There’s just something about this baibe that blows your mind, I think its close to weed and speaking in tounges.

Fast-forward to 15 years later, your engaged, you just asked her out, last year….

This is going to be like those martin scorcese movies of back and forth. So buy yourself some big tin of popcorn. 

i have been watching movies

happy new year people....
i've been watching movies to kill off the stress...
will be back...its a new year...

journal 1

After healing for a month or two,...well some go beyond that.., you decide to give it another shot...

you meet a hootie and you know that first initial encounter....boy meets girl.

You put on your best behavior and act wonderful and nice. Obviously, when the initial encounter goes smoothly, which always does, you go on to base two. She makes a concerted effort to maintain her perfect appearance, hair, makeup, nails, clothes. You become extremely attentive, calling regularly, making plans in advance, buy a new deo or fume, wear that shirt etc. Then once you've got her hooked, the same old story happens again. She starts demanding for more than you can give,..she wants to be seen regularly, you start fighting over nothing, you call for 3 units and well run out of what to say, she starts complaining on how you are ever busy, mbu you don't have the, i think its 11th or 7th hour for her.

Ugh you becomes less attentive and soon start wanting more space, more "guy" time, or when she calls and you don't want to talk, you tell her your driving, well any Ugandan that owns a car would understand this.. You don't put in as much effort as you did when you were chasing her.

So you tell your boy and 'girlfriends' about the whole thing after they have noticed she no longer comes around and somehow, they understand and even side with you, and they go on attacking you on how you always get the wrong girls. And the lady friends tell you mbu they are different from the others, which you spend a whole night arguing about till they try to convince you they are different.

After another 'hurtful' break up, you decide to hung around and wait for the perfect break through. You start hanging out with your friends more which is a good thing because you spend less and have more fun. You take all the crystals, Rachaels, Lornas, Sandras out more often and they love it. With time it becomes more of you and the girls. Then disaster kicks in.

Ever had a 'thing' with one of your girlfriends where well you both like each other but your friends, and flirt a lot?!!!, so somehow your flirting gets intense, and you end up doing what you shouldn't have done but you liked it and you keep on doing it and before you know it, you've fallen for each other...then you start dating her because you like her and she is different.. and yes she is different because she already knows what you want and knows all stuff about you.

You first don't tell the others that you guys are doing it so its secretive at first and boy its really fun. You keep on asking yourselves what were we waiting for all along?!!!

So it goes on and on till some of the other friends run into you at her place or when you are out having fun and you all pretend like we just ran into each other...

Then its gets so good that you tell your bestest friend about it and she also tells her bestest friend and they are happy for you but with some caution...then finally its out in the open and wow, they all like it., but some insist that you guys should never break up because they are not ready to take sides.

And its all lovey dovey and you last a year and a half, then it all begins again...she turns into an ordinary girl who loves and wants to be called all the time and wants to be seen regularly and wants you to work less and the 11th hour thing is mentioned again...

so is it you or are they all the same....

I have been watching movies

my girlfriend thinks am weirde.....I have come up with a list ...its big. I've drawn up a list of some of the best... After re-watching and comparing,I have finally decided Denzel washington is my favourite actor of all time.

1. citizen kane
2. the shawshank redemption-morgan freeeman
3. the godfather.....-just had to include it
4. schindler's list-..........you'll cry...
5. the great debators-denzel
6. american gangster-denzel
7. surf's up
8. closer
9. mercury rising
10. soul food
11. juno
12. journey to the end of the night
13. micheal clayton
14. step u 2 the streets( pliz, do not try this at home)
15. the english patient
16. the fight club(don't start no cult)
17. remember the titans-denzel
18. the cider house rules
19. almost famous
20. the bourne identity, supremacy
21. catch me if you can
22. road to perdition
23. forrest gump
24. muchurian candidate-denzel
25. devil in a blue dress-denzel
26. john q- denzel
27. man on fire-denzel and dakota fanning(seriously)
28. shrek1,2 even the third
29. awake
30. p.s. I love you
31. enchanted
32. monster's ball
33. 300
34. little children
35. american beauty
36. the holiday
37. titanic
38. the departed
39. infernal affairs
40. o brother, where thou art? (hmmmmmmm)
41. amistad
42. life is beautiful
43. crash
44. enemy at the gates
45. cold mountain
46. a beautiful mind
47. inventing the abbots
48. blood diamond
49. constantine
50. the usual suspects
51. united states of leland
52. crimson tide
53. soul food
54. a time to kill
55. one night at mccool's
56. 2:37
57. idlewild
58. sound of music
59. why do fools fall in love
60. alpha dog
61. elizabeth town
62. LXG
63. dream gals
64. hair spray(.....welcome to the sixties...)
65. lucky number slevin
66. chicago
67. sin city
68. bobby
69. armageddon
70. saving private ryan
71. jerry maguire
72. sometime in April
73. a few good men
74. matrix 1,2 and 3
75. wicker park
76. a river runs through( the only movie that has ever made me cry, i don't know why)
77. american history x
78. the panic room
79. the silence of the lambs
80. open range
81. anna and the king
82. moulin rouge
83. cloverfiled
84. heat
85. the rock
86. a mighty heart
87. death at a funeral
88. zodiac
89. eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
90. the green mile
91. wanted( think out of the box)
92. the four feathers(....heath ledger, rest in peace)
93. passion of the christ
94. brave heart
95. legends of the fall
96. sleepers
97. when harry met sally
98. the note book
99. courage under fire-denzel
100. training day-denzel
101. love in the arctic circle
102. love me if you dare

ran out of time...

faults in saints

Have you ever found yourself with problems of your social or economic life that are killing you?

And after they've become a burden, you just can't think of a reason that caused and pushed the most righteous, responsible and good person in such a place of reckless thinking, where you are ready to inflict harm/violence to your life and the lives of those around you without thinking or pausing for accountability!

And when you look back at the hardest difficulties you've ever encountered, this is a darkest you feel you may never get out of.

Your cute and caring friends start noticing your change in behavior and the close ones can really tell that there's a problem but you banish that thought aside, until one, that's really trust-able makes you admit that there's a problem, but then, you just think for a second before pouring out the problem whether the person has been there,..... or if they haven't, will they ever be there?

Ugghh!! You look at your bottle and take a big sip to clear your head. It's not the end of the world. People go through all these things; it's the only consolation you can think of.

Well at some point in life, we all descend into hell, we are all tempted or make wrong decisions or take the good looking bus that you think will reach home. Some of us do it out of curiosity or necessity of time or take it as an accident,or..... whatever the reason that can help you explain why.

The main goal when we are there is, how will you get out, if you can. Do you take more risks?

At this point you wish you were still in primary and daddy will come to your rescue or some saint will help out. Well you can go to church and pray, we serve a living God, church can you give lots of ideas.

How you get out,if you do will make you a great person or will bring out the worst in you or might, to some lucky ones, bring out the best of them. It brought out the worst in me.

keep on calling feat hanny

well bambi people don't forget their origins, Akon, full name Akongo( you see the president said that we all came from the luo, so some luo dudes said that he's real name was Akongo, he just cut it short for you know, the fame) was in town and he rocked our world. I don't know how much the celtel guys coughed up but am just hoping they did get thier money back. Big ups for celtel's manager, I heard he had to go and convince the dude himself. Thousands of people turned up for the show and there were quite a number of kids, that's why he didn't attempt to dry hump anybody. He crowned the whole night with keep on calling.
Well since I was the CMB(cash money brother) of the night, the honies did a remix of the song and everyone around us, since several didn't know the song followed, here's how it goes:

So when you hear them calling out "Hanny",
let them keep on calling
when you hear the world calling out "H-hanny",
let them keep on calling
Cause He went through hell and back to get here,
so keep on calling
let me hear you now,
let me hear you now,
let me hear you just keep on calling

So go on and live your life as if everydays' gone be your last.
I've never been that happy. Life's really good.

letter to the girl next door

Dear girl who works just opposite me
To begin with, yes I know you’re a beautiful female. Such females do exist, please stop leaking your lips and doing that hair thing gals usually do, and stop thinking you’re the only young fella around. You’re probably 23 or 22, you could even be 28, my co-worker is almost 29 but she looks 23. Stop making a fool of yourself by pretending like you’re the most beautiful thing around. Your not. If you think so, you wouldn’t look at my sisters when they come around,…. yah don’t pretend, your jealous because you think they are cute, cuter than you.
Stop using that accent, your tongue is not flexible. Leave it to the whites or people like us who went to good primary schools. And stop laughing at these guys when they beat a buffalo, it can happen to anyone, ask your mayor.
I have a feeling you go home and tell everyone how the guy who works in the opposite window has a thing for you and you probably add on how everyone has a thing for you. We all have girlfriends and some have wives, its only that we don’t want them to see where we work, they’ll demand for more.
I’ve caught you staring, not once and not twice but three times this week. I don’t blame you, I changed my entire new wardrobe. Uhmm, so why don’t you for once just accept that a brother has great taste..Hmmm? What's wrong with you, I wont bite. Am fed up of you borrowing my newspapers, ok its not that am tired, I just don’t get why you’ve to send your brother, why don’t you pick it yourself. And stop filling my crosswords when you’re not sure. Please use a pencil, it costs me a grand. And why do you talk on phone while looking this side? Acting all happy with smiles and hugs, do you want me to assume its your boyfriend calling? Pliiizzzz. The guy doesn’t even call you for more than two minutes.
You over eat chips. Can you please grow up. You ate chips on Monday, Tuesday and you’ll eat them again tomorrow. What's wrong with you? We know your young. Aren't you jealous when you see me with uhuru, nandos chips, luwombo from nalongo….hmmmm? Do not pretend that you do not see them; I make sure I stand up so that you can see them clearly, and I see you looking at your soda miserably when you see me sipping my juice. Hmmm?
By the way, I happen to know your name, ehhhhhhhh. I will not mention it but I know it. I got it from the guy who takes our food orders. And I know you know my name, because people always shout it out when Arsenal losses and Utd wins. I see that glow that comes on your face when they mention it...hhmmmm.
Your hot, everybody knows you are hot, but they are all too old for you, they are almost your dad’s age. Your dad talks to me and he likes me, he has that look of ‘I wish my son was like me’ when he looks at me. You have asked everyone around, correction, the old men around, to buy you a soda or airtime and the best you can ask from me is newspapers? You do not even talk to me directly. What's wrong with you?