Tuesday, October 03, 2006

i am tired

I'm tired of being last on the list of people's priorities.
I'm tired of never having a place in their decisions. It's time I started worrying about my own damn self like others do and do what's best for me.
I'm tired of being accused of being selfish when I share everything I have with others, and try to share more but they won't let me.
I am tired of abstaining when am in a sea of girls.
I'm tired of saying ok when its actually not,.... i mean cant someone see that it's not without them asking.
I'm tired of people who are confusing my roomate, it affects me when his angry and when he has so much to talk about that you just cant sleep.
I'm tired of your judging me and persecuting me.
I'm tired of people who can't pronounce my name, it makes me sick inside. Why cant you cut it short, ....it's hanny, and say it like you mean it....guys pliz dont when there are girls around.
I'm tired of lieing...ok not alot but to get what i want or run away from what touches me...why cant i just tell the truth all the time. Am not saying everything I say are lies.
I'm tired of the job my uncle gave me, ...the problem is that everyone older than you is your boss...the most annoying are the daft ones especially his sister in law. My uncle thinks he knows everything, am tired of him asking for my grades when my Dad doesn,t.
I'm tired of rolexes, it's the only supper you can get past 10;00 in kikoni.
I'm sick and tired of some neighbour of ours who is so beautiful, sexy,....and all. I always just see her in a towel with a cute tatoo on that body of hers...and she never says hi to me.
I'm sick and tired of going to waterloo to say hi, ....there are some few people that i would love to go see but i end up going to all rooms.
I'm tired of ever complaining in my heart, someone pisses me but i just can't yell at you or fight, i fight with in.
I'm tired of my former roomate, the guy just wont grow up, hez still pimped up and uses the same vulgar language. But he is my friend and i love him and .......
Ok am tired of writing now, ..... by the way i was joking.

God,
Please forgive me for all my wrong doings. And please forgive me for neglecting you.

6 comments:

~ScotchBiscuits~ said...

a side of you that rarely shows up!

Cheri said...

u're forgiven...but now u're gone! come back.

Infact...u're unforgiven!Beef still stands!

modoathii said...

aiyayayayayaya...kweli you must have been tired. up till now you're still resting.

i'm tired.

thanks for stopping by my couch.

crys said...

ok, hey! i said WOW! so now do another piece. i've read this one more than once already.

Iwaya said...

yes, when is the next one?

Iwaya said...

i'm tired of coming and finding nothing new.